Take me home

What if the only way not to feel pain

Is to never feel anything ever again

I do not know how to be okay

I get further away from it every day

Breaks me that I'm most afraid of myself

Cuz you can't just run away from yourself

The worst is waking up when the sun is bright

Remembering what I tried to escape last night

Every smile feels like internal bleeding

In every word I'm slowly drowning

Drowning in my own thoughts

In the merciless streams I'm lost

It's like I have already checked out

Buried alive underneath the ground

I'm trapped here feeling so alone

Won't someone please take me home