No trust

I wish I didn't think so much

That it wasn't hard for me to trust

Why am I always so self-critical?

Get rid of the voice that's crucial

This isn't how I pictured life to be

Years of in fear for what's in me

The scars that got cut in my skin

Stayed open, strangers moved in

A new reality I couldn't understand

I knew that life was out of my hand

Someone else was pulling strings

All I thought of, was getting wings

I feared thoughts that wasn't mine

I'm still scared, I'm far from fine

If only I could trust those who care

Always expect the worst, it isn't fair