NEVER BE GRANTED

I just can't let go of the seed I planted

I know my wish will never be granted

It's like wishing for rain in a desert

I realize now I should've been alert

At night I dream of how life could be

When I wake up it's not what I see

My wish is just a drop in the ocean

Except, it doesn't create any motion

Planes takes off and lands inside

But they only leave the pain behind

And I'm left with a bigger burden

No clue how to deal with hurting

These thoughts can't truly be mine

Damn I wish I could say "I'm fine"

Without having to lie or to pretend

That I don't know, this has no end

It's not that I want to go I'm just tired

Tired of how this life has been wired

Deep down I don't want to just end it

Honestly I wish that I could change it