Life stroke

I envy the little girl I were, but she broke

She was once whole, before life stroke

The sun got replaced by a dark cloud

A newly lit candle in a storm, blown out

A little flaw, but a stable future planned

Until life changed the cards in my hand

Unpleasant surprises kept coming for me

Pushed down, it isn't how life should be

Dragged around in circles of nightmares

Happy memories were swopped upstairs

I grieve who I had no chance to become

Bet I'll never know where it went wrong

Life should have been colorful, not grey

And I shouldn't look for a reason to stay

Thankful for those who showed me love

Those still on earth, and those above

I know, if I dwell on past, I'll miss future

But I can't help to look at the old picture

And wonder how life could have turned

If I could have all those years returned