Designed

Thought I could drown my sorrow and sin

But that damn thing learnt how to swim

It felt like I was brutally hit by a train

Lying there getting soaked by the pouring rain

Tried to rise from the ashes like a phoenix

But maybe some is too broken there isn't a fix

I thought I had enough strength to fight the battle

All the positive words just sounded like prattle

I'm terrified that I'll never get to fill the hole

That the pain dug into my heart and soul

I hate that I must battle my brain everyday

It feels like way too big of a price to pay

I'm so lost I don't know where to start

All I know is that I have a lot of pain in my heart

If I could, I would keep on screaming

But all this hurt makes me feel like I'm choking

I've got lost, so lost in my own mind

Guess that's just the way I was designed

Always seeing the flaws and what's wrong

Tried changing the melody, but I only know this song