Can't comprehend

Too many things I can't comprehend

Wish I could just live in the moment

Can't count times I wanted to give up

I want to treasure the minutes I've got

Whenever I feel just slightly alright

In seconds, I'm back to another fight

Who stole my last sense of reality?

And replaced the happy child in me

I think I'm closer to heaven in my sleep

Cause when I'm awake I fall too deep

To me everyone seems so damn distant

Even beside me I doubt their existent

At times I even reach out to make sure

That they're here and not just a blur

I want to escape from being a hostage

I don't think I'd have any advantage