Bitterness

Victory is a foreign word to me

Never found in my vocabulary

What weighs most is bitterness

Thought staying down was safest

Things get better, could be bluff

And will better ever be enough

Who say better equals barrable

It just seems far too impossible

One bad day, turned to a year

And then to a whole life in fear

Suddenly I woke up in darkness

It's upside down, life's a mess

I look to the sky with questions

A whole life of chain depressions

Haven't I paid with enough blood

Mind blocked by a thought clot

Life gets sucked out of my body

Barricade a room for last of me

Restless, the road home is long

Every bit left of me feels wrong